One of my life’s ongoing learning has been recognising that I’m in a phase, and it won’t last forever.  The phases when I’m full of Yang, hot, active, “doing” energy, I tend to feel amazing. “Finally!” I think, “I’ve made it! I’m healthy, I have energy, I’m enacting my visions, and ready to do my work in the world!”  But this too is a phase, and passes. Then I find myself internal, yin, disconnected from my visionary parts, more connected with my internal pain and apathy.  “Oh no!” I mourn,...

I just arrived in Maui Hawaii, after packing up my belongings, saying goodbye to friends, students, and clients in California.

It’s a process I’ve been through perhaps more times than most people, as I have moved cities and countries a number of times in my life. While it is an incredibly emotionally and logistically challenging process, there are some aspects of the big move that I find deeply supporting of my personal growth and practice.

Much of my personal practice is influenced by the pri...

Sailors understand that in order to sail a boat smoothly, the sail must line up with the wind and water currents. In order for the boat to go in the desired direction, the structure of the boat must be in correct relationship with the energy of the wind and the water. The same principles apply to the human body. For ongoing health and ‘smooth sailing’ the structure of our bodies need to be well aligned with the energies flowing through us. Zero Balancing (ZB) is a form of body-energy therapy...

Some of you may have noticed that I recently changed my last name. Many people have asked me about it, so I thought I would fill you all in on the story!

I have many stories about myself, some of them I love, and some cause me pain. One of the stories Ive held since childhood is of being ‘between’. My parents separated when I was a year old and I grew up ‘between’ families. One of these families immigrated to New Zealand from the US when I was seven, so I grew up ‘between’ nations. I regular...

I was 23 years old and experiencing my first existential crisis.  A naively executed trip to Peru complete with plant-medicine, culture shock theft and more had triggered every fear I had and landed me in a state of considerable instability.

I’d been walking around for several months in a state of self-absorbed terror.  My feet hurt so bad I couldn’t stand for more than 5 minutes. My mind was a loop of mental anguish, questioning the meaning of every moment. The worse part, I felt I couldn’t...

Lately I have been hard at work practicing doing nothing. It has taken a lot of effort! For years I struggled against a state I loaded with judgement and called ‘slothfulness’. I felt ashamed of my sleep-ins, my movie watching, my times of complete non-productivity.

The story I had internalized from my culture and upbringing was that ACTIVE is better. I was acting with the belief that constant hard work will be rewarded, that I am a better and more worthy person when I am in the mode of doing...

This story is a brief account of my current journey. While very much about my personal story, perhaps it contains an element of the universal too. 

During the past year I have had moments of an overwhelming urge to go to Siberia.  I have to explain right away, that I have no real idea what Siberia is like. I use it here as a sort of dream imagery. A metaphor rather than a real place.

In looking more deeply at the moments when this feeling arises, I have come to understand a lot about my c...